ABOUT . ME . AND . LOVE

Hye there and Assalamualaikum ^.^

Yeah, just had a nice trip to Sabah with the family and it was just nic and the best holiday ever, firt time holiday naik flight, siapa tak suka kan? Hee :D

Actually its not the main point. Pasal holiday tu kalau aku rajin, aku buatlah entri yang lain eh. Heee.

The main point is....

A day in Sabah, when my family was in the room, and I was sitting on a couch and facebook-ing while my mom laying on the bed and watching tv.

Me: Ma, tengah ni, kami tengah usha gambar *crush 5 tahun aku*. Dia silat woo.

Mama: Dah lah Farhan. Lupakan jelah dia. Buat apa tunggu dia, buang masa je. Carilah orang lain...

And I was speechless. I can;t say anything and just continuing with it. But actually I am thinking, how can mom knows that I still love him, and still waiting for him? Erm, that time I was very sure that moms will definitely understand their children. Proved. But the thing is, can I leave him and move on? 

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Its a longggg time thinking about this.

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. But after that moment, I think what my mom's said is true. I should have left him long ago.

I determined that on the early year of 2012 when I started to enter SERATAS, but I don't know when, I text him again, and I continue the 5 years journey. I know about his gossips in his school, I know much of him. Yes, I am jealous, but why I am still, waiting and waiting him?

Oh Farhan.

Yesterday, I just asked my dear friend, Ain about the moment above. She didn't agree with my mum with some reasons. But I can't understand them much.

Hurm, Syaza! If you read this entry, YOU MUST RECOMMEND ME AN IDEA TO DO. Hurm, Syaza is missing without any news. Yes, I need her badly, my dear motivator, Syaza :(

So, for now. I think that I better leave and forget him.

And I also need to forget my crush in SERATAS.

And have the next crush on the mystery guy.

Yeah, don't know who..

Upss, it is not who but what. Haha.

I wanna have a crush on my imagination guy. Yes :)

Man in Black =P

Haha. Well, I know that for this time being that I should focus on study and my team. 

But why I need the crushes and so on? 

Sometimes I lost the spirit to study and to move.

Sometimes I can't get up when I fall.

So, I inspired them to move on for my studies. They are smart, genius, nice, caring *sangattt -dalam kurungan* and I just want to be like them, a star :)

But then, this is what I get.

Heh, mom always remember me to not have monkey loves in this earlier ages. And the effects is: Aku tak couple ke hape jadah pun sampai sekarang. *siapalah aku kan, tak cun pun! #hakikat.

I know the risks if I have fallen into the bigggggggg waves of monkey love, and I dare I don't want to join those who has broke. Huish.

I know, for the time being, education is the most important thing and I should work for it, not for this.

Yes!

I know, once I have lost, don't search for anyone, but returns to Allah. I know that, but.. why? Hurm.

Never mind, everybody makes mistakes. You've got the point and don't repeat it again :)

Be strong Farhan!

Allah is always there for you!

Mama and Abah is always loving you!

Dear Farhan, no need to find others love, because they won't really loves you. Love those who loves you, because no matter happens, they will still, loving you :)

Work for study, strive for success, ready to accomplish a big appreciation in your life!

Study + Hockey + Debate + Photography = LIFE :)

Hurm. Long entry is almost done and I hope this is just a starting for me, to move on with MY wolrd of imaginations that I will make it a reality.

May Allah ease,

Assalamualaikum wbth....